Unforeseen

Today I was talking with a friend and she mentioned that somebody that we had gone to school with has cancer. She linked me to her blog and urged me to check it out. Since I was procrastinating from doing my school work at the time, I did it right then and there.

I just finished reading her journal and I am heartbroken for her. My age, but with stage four cancer. Treatment after treatment and it is not slowing down -- in fact, the tumors are growing larger every time she turns around and they keep spreading.

I do not know why this affects me so much; after all, I was not friends with this person. Maybe it is because she is my age and looks like she has only a few months left. Her child is much younger than mine and she would be left without a mom because of a cancer that grew out of control.

I think this was the sign I have been waiting for. I can stay in my job and keep plugging along, be unhappy, never really going anywhere with my life and wasting it. Or I can leave now and possibly put my life back on track so that I can be with my own child and enjoy my time with her.

I am about to start weeping again, so I think it time to stop writing.