I have an appointment this week and this is what I want to say:
The migraines and headaches will not go away. I will adapt.
The elevated WBC will remain elevated. It does not mean necessarily mean I will have cancer.
The overwhelming feelings and urges will remain. I will deal with it.
My professional life is difficult. It's all I have right now and I will suck it up.
I do not have hope. I also do not have a loss of hope.
Everything just is and ever shall be, world without end.